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I ignored those silly remarks about it being friday 13th where badluck occurs BUT i must admit that i, 99.5%, agree that friday 13th is an unlucky day. Definately not being supersticious, i swear. Merely just stating a fact! I diddn't realise i was frowning badly the whole day. Through the fun blickering, a sudden shock, like a gun shot, came along. Then cries. Have i really been erased? I gladly laid my phone aside, hoping it was all just another nightmare.
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A quick scent dashed passed, damn! I smiled reluctantly when my lovely friends acted foolish just to see me, at least, giggle. Hey! What are friends for right? Someone please look me in the eyes &tell me that i'll be okay because i want to be! "The truth hurts, but a lies worst" flashed through my mind. It did take 10% of my 'depressed state' away tho. I'd rather hurt myself than hurt you. Tried to take my mind off it by making my mind busy, gazing at no where. Pushed myself too. I really thank God for friends in high &low places.
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A pretty heart balloon i got from Shawn Chew(my very first valentines day gift, oh so loved) which did make me smile mildly. Dear Song Kai &Raj were present to cheer me up, ALOT. Turning my cries into frowns into smiles and finally laughter! Not forgetting my dearest girlfriend, Debbie, for always being there for me. It would be legal to drown my sorrows in about 1year2months2days(desperately waiting, impatiently)! According to janice, chocolates will do the trick. But according to chew, songs would(?)! Then i realised i started humming to the song tonight... &i felt a tear.
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My fingers crossed, eyes closed, wishing real hard that this was all just a scary nightmare that was not meant to happen. My valentine? Im sorry...
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dont wana live a lie
posted by becks at 8:30 PM
Friday, February 13, 2009
