Schools coming to an end in about 1week. Holidays are finally here! I'm looking forward to it because i need it desperately. I need that little extra rest that i can get. For now, chinese intensive is all i need. But it not something i want. How ironic.

A whole long day of brain-washing myself, going crazy about chinese. I'm happy, not really. Trying to keep a safe distance away from the edge of the building. 1st June will be over and gone soon! I'd like to rush through everyday. Not trying to hold back or pay any attention to my surroundings. Getting it all done as soon as possible.

Damn.

Time seems to be going all slowly when your life seems meaningless. I might need that extra boost and push! I'm expecting alot of homework coming my way. I should appreciate and enjoy! June holidays will be hectic, i guess. I'm not able to go for a holiday at all. Everyone will have to keep me company. My family agreed that i could not be left as an independent girl. Resulting in making everyone stay home during the holidays. Sorry, but it ain't my fault. I'm not trusted to take care of this gigantanormous house on my own. It would probably be thorn down after 1day, partying. Haha.

Live with intentions.
Play with abandon.

XOXO,
becks

Feeling the same as before. My instincts tells me so. The little devil in my head telling me that what i'm doing is alright. While the little angel in my head is telling me that i'm wrong! I did not want to marinate myself in sadness. Filled my schedules till i suffered. Placed everything before my health, my life. How stupid i feel. No one understood the agony. My agony, my situation. I've been drowning in sorrow. Hiding my face with a mask. I need someone to hear me out...

I'm lost.
Been lost.
Am i still loved?

My blog was dead as i was mugging really hard, i swear. I'm tired. Staying out till so late everyday, to be with my friends, to forget, to study. My life seems meaningless. So many things happened these pass few weeks and MIDYEARS ARE FINALLY OVER! Cheers. This 'major' year doesn't seem so major after all! We were partying even though exams have not ended. But sometimes de-stressing is a good thing(:

Firstly, MANY THANKS to dear JianYe! Who stayed up till 4am just to do this pretty card for my belated birthday and especially when we were going to study the next day. Much love. Much appreciated.

We were really tough muggers. Mugging every single night that period. Well, 50% was spent mugging really hard. And the other 50% was spent playing! Fun, joy and laughter we had. Being so inconsiderate, enjoying ourselves while taking up one whole corner of macs, our study 'territory'. I love and appreciating my time with my dear ones for the last year. It'll be missed, much.

Jun's little smiley friends to keep him company.

Jun and Raj spent a night with my family at the club. We were suppose to study but ended up going for dinner together. Haha. So mummy warmly invited them for dinner. Mummy is really friendly guys... She isnt scary! So that night before our paper was enjoyed.

I fell in love with this chocolate treat from Sheree(: I later introduced to Making me feel all sweetly loved! And whats more. The little surprise inside was my token of LOVE for maggie dear! Cheers to her dirty little secret! =D

We celebrated Benny's birthday on 15May. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEN! He turns 17. While i'm 17yrs and 1mth old! LOL. A whole day spent with him. Exams were not over yet. However we still went out and celebrated. We headed to sakae at simei for a lunch buffet. A fun filling lunch. Then proceeded to safra to bowl and play L4D. We were engrossed with playing till the shop was going to close. Midnight. I missed my last bus home so afew of us crashed dayson's place.

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CONGRATS TO BENNY LAU TIKO!

If you're really hot and trying all means to cool down...

A quick rough update due to laziness..

Peace out.