BECKside*

ONSUGAR

2009-07-15T20:10:00.001+08:00

I MOVED!!!
RELINK ME AT BECKSIDE.ONSUGAR.COM
XOXO*

RUNAWAY

2009-07-07T22:00:00.002+08:00

"I just wana scream and lose control.
Throw my hands up and let it go.
Forget about everything and run away.
I just wana fall and lose myself.
Life is so hard it hurts like hell.
Forget about everything and run away."

Lyrics seem to mean so much.

Mummy presumes that I'm depressed 'cos i am eating alot.

Blogger is still giving me a headach with the pictures.

School is taking up alot of my precious study time.

Saturday food tour failed.

Bitch much.

F**K everything!

Living my life for Him.

How ironic.

PFFFT

2009-07-02T21:35:00.001+08:00

SCREW BLOGGER.

I CAN'T POST PICTURES!!

WEIGHT MANAGEMENT

2009-06-29T22:26:00.004+08:00

June just went pass in a flash! sigh* I had a fetish for food during the hols.
I couldn't deny that i was eating like a pig.
Well, i eat when im bored...

Fattening & Bad foods:
- Butter
- Ice cream
- Cheese
- Chicken fat
- Meat fat
- Beef
- Lamb
- Pork
- Alcohols
- Soft drinks
- Cookies
- Crackers
- Fries
- Burgers
- Doughnuts
- Cake
- Chocolates
- Muffins
- Frozen Yogurt
- Potato chips
- Candies

Sinful foods she should avoid before it all goes down to her thighs.
"Insanity! So all i can eat are fruits and vegetables?"
doublebleah*

P.S. I'm having problems uploading pictures, and i don't think im the only one.
So will upload it when blogger has resolved this MAJOR problem.

hatehatelovehate

MY THOUGHTS EXACTLY

2009-06-27T21:03:00.000+08:00

These words reached into me heart:

"Happiness keeps you Sweet
Trials keep you Strong
Sorrow keeps you Human
Failure keeps you Humble and
Success keeps you Glowing,
but only Faith and Attitude keeps you going."

ABSOLUTE PEAR

2009-06-19T01:00:00.000+08:00

Too much makes you drunk!
A test to resist temptation.
I failed.

I walked down memory lane.
It diddn't only happen once, but many times!
It couldn't be avoided.
I tried so hard.
I failed, again.

"Everyone deserves a second chance."
Quoted by Terminator Salvation. HAHA!
And i couldn't agree more.

Ithinkimissyou...

LITTLE NYONYA

2009-06-14T21:51:00.010+08:00

So, Marina Barrage it was! With their pretty night scenes.
A sexy and romantic place to bring your love.
*hint hint*

DEBEC*

My best men!
PSP OBSESSIONS!

Uncle Chua(:

Our SEXY Man!

Raj&Chew

EMBARRASSMENT!

Jun&I 'arm-wrestling'

SMELL no evil!!

FANTASIZING!!

ARRRJUN!

OOOHLALA

We LOVE Gaia

sleepy head

groupie(:

AHAH! I ROCK AT TAKING PICTURES MANN!! =D

failure attempt to take a picture in the middle of the road
(while the green man was blinking)

Aww. Don cry glenn(:

'Little miss drama princess'

HEARTS&KISSES*

IM'MA BE A GOOD GIRL

2009-06-11T20:34:00.002+08:00

Chemistry WAS productive, apparently. I managed to absorb everything even though i only had 3 out of 8hours of my beauty sleep. We skipped physics however. *ahem* thanks to sheree... Haha. So we walked under the blazing sun, going high and mighty, to chew's house.

As usual, camwhored! =D

PORN?!

Look at her face. She was DESPERATE for Ribena.

Posing all seductivelyresulted in...
getting harrassed by yogi
Ah Pek, Ah Ye. Taken in 1972

I red heart you*

NUMBER 1 TO 20!

"Don't ever stop asking for help because you might just get it!" -becks*

JUST ANOTHER GIRL

2009-06-10T23:22:00.047+08:00

That's what i'm known as to SOMEONE close...

8June2009. A lovely day spent with my dearest friends at the lovely sunny Sentosa!
In short, we had fun.
We got tan.
We played beach volleyball.
We soaked in the water.
We enjoyed ourselves.
We hardly ate.
We laughed.
We camwhored.
We LOST MY LIL' VOLLEYBALL! =(
But thank goodness it was not my baby...

I shall let the pictures do the talking:-

Yummy waffle to start off a beautiful day!

ARJUN!(:

JEREMY!(:

CHICKEN!!

Chew getting all horny.

Typical guys showing off their assets.

HAHA!

I was keeping watch! Being their lifeguard x)

Reeeeee baby!

MUCHMUCHLOVE(:

Jeremy&Ree

JianYe!!

Danker Mervyn Wayne Alexander Baloo

Once upon a starry starry romantic night at vivo...

TWEEEEEEST DAY!

We realised we were all in black!

Laughing chain. MY BRILLIANT IDEA that made everyone around laugh at nothing!
XOXO,
beckside*
p.s. credits to JianYe & Naz for the pics

SIGNS

2009-06-05T19:12:00.002+08:00

You may have probably seen this many times. But i never get bored of this heart warming film. Everything means something. Our life taken cared of by His hands.

All we have to do is just to do the best we can.

Credits to Youtube.

Baby, don't you worry about a thing.

Everything is just gona be great!

ONCE AND FOR ALL

2009-06-04T16:06:00.004+08:00

Sports Day: I'm really proud of my class! We pulled off cheer even at the very last minute. When i went crazy screaming and shouting at everyone. My sincere apologies. Well, second isn so bad. We wouldn't have realised how close or how much respected we were if not for 2nd! =D

"5B is gona win.
So trash the rest into the bin.
We are the coolest team.
So rock it HARD!
Rock it HARD!"

Even so, we achieved individual CLASS CHAMPION! Much effort from everyone.

Do visit TanJianYe now!

I'm happily disappointed(in a good way, obviously).

My life: Recently i've been sleeping over alot. As much as i don't want too. But i seem to be enjoying the night life that i'm having. Turning my home into a hotel. Which would just spoil my reputation of being a good girl. I confess, I rebelled. He's right. I'm no more the good beckside that i used to be...

I'm burning away all the problems that i was having. The only time when i would always be thinking of, not the good, but the bad. Should someone tell me that i cannot do it, i'll turn a deaf ear to him. I knew that ending my life was not how i wanted it to be. Everyday, a stepping stone. Learning new things to prepare me for the future...

On 1 June, Chinese Os just ended. Hopefully i would do well enough NOT to retake it. Hopefully my hard effort studying for chinese(for my very first time) would not go to waste. I'm crossing my fingers on that.

Last night, at 1140, we drank. I drank till my hearts content. Turning red and burning inside. A silent horrible tipsy feeling arose. We played and had fun at Dayson's house till 4am. I was reluctant to go home... So headed to reeee's house to 'rest'. However, i couldn't fall asleep. Thank goodness Markaye(: was awake, suffering from insomnia. Haha. So i went to meet him which we was suppose to have breakfast BUT it started raining so no prata! He could have cooked breakfast BUT he was such a lazy bum. He had school and was suppose to be up at 7 BUT he was snoozing and lazing in bed. Much as i wanted to sleep, 2hours of power sleep before another whole long day diddn't do much. Still, i walked home from school accompanied by Raj and Chew.

Mark, you do realise how many BUTs i used.. haha

I'm looking forward to monday. Visiting Sentosa with the class after a long time. School break have so far been great. Because i'm making use of every single minute! Even though my schedules will be packed with extra classes and study sessions, i took an oath to make good use of my time without stressing myself out. Just watch me!(:

One more thing. My chance WAS NEVER my sympathy.

Happy Holidays!
Play safe.
Be safe.
Have fun.
love becks*

BLAME MYSELF

2009-05-23T16:47:00.002+08:00

Schools coming to an end in about 1week. Holidays are finally here! I'm looking forward to it because i need it desperately. I need that little extra rest that i can get. For now, chinese intensive is all i need. But it not something i want. How ironic.

A whole long day of brain-washing myself, going crazy about chinese. I'm happy, not really. Trying to keep a safe distance away from the edge of the building. 1st June will be over and gone soon! I'd like to rush through everyday. Not trying to hold back or pay any attention to my surroundings. Getting it all done as soon as possible.

Damn.

Time seems to be going all slowly when your life seems meaningless. I might need that extra boost and push! I'm expecting alot of homework coming my way. I should appreciate and enjoy! June holidays will be hectic, i guess. I'm not able to go for a holiday at all. Everyone will have to keep me company. My family agreed that i could not be left as an independent girl. Resulting in making everyone stay home during the holidays. Sorry, but it ain't my fault. I'm not trusted to take care of this gigantanormous house on my own. It would probably be thorn down after 1day, partying. Haha.

Live with intentions.
Play with abandon.

XOXO,
becks

WHAT IS LOVE?

2009-05-22T16:14:00.000+08:00

Feeling the same as before. My instincts tells me so. The little devil in my head telling me that what i'm doing is alright. While the little angel in my head is telling me that i'm wrong! I did not want to marinate myself in sadness. Filled my schedules till i suffered. Placed everything before my health, my life. How stupid i feel. No one understood the agony. My agony, my situation. I've been drowning in sorrow. Hiding my face with a mask. I need someone to hear me out...

I'm lost.
Been lost.
Am i still loved?

Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none.
William Shakespeare.

CRANKY

2009-05-21T21:35:00.000+08:00

My blog was dead as i was mugging really hard, i swear. I'm tired. Staying out till so late everyday, to be with my friends, to forget, to study. My life seems meaningless. So many things happened these pass few weeks and MIDYEARS ARE FINALLY OVER! Cheers. This 'major' year doesn't seem so major after all! We were partying even though exams have not ended. But sometimes de-stressing is a good thing(:

Firstly, MANY THANKS to dear JianYe! Who stayed up till 4am just to do this pretty card for my belated birthday and especially when we were going to study the next day. Much love. Much appreciated.

We were really tough muggers. Mugging every single night that period. Well, 50% was spent mugging really hard. And the other 50% was spent playing! Fun, joy and laughter we had. Being so inconsiderate, enjoying ourselves while taking up one whole corner of macs, our study 'territory'. I love and appreciating my time with my dear ones for the last year. It'll be missed, much.

Jun's little smiley friends to keep him company.

Jun and Raj spent a night with my family at the club. We were suppose to study but ended up going for dinner together. Haha. So mummy warmly invited them for dinner. Mummy is really friendly guys... She isnt scary! So that night before our paper was enjoyed.

I fell in love with this chocolate treat from Sheree(: I later introduced to Making me feel all sweetly loved! And whats more. The little surprise inside was my token of LOVE for maggie dear! Cheers to her dirty little secret! =D

We celebrated Benny's birthday on 15May. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEN! He turns 17. While i'm 17yrs and 1mth old! LOL. A whole day spent with him. Exams were not over yet. However we still went out and celebrated. We headed to sakae at simei for a lunch buffet. A fun filling lunch. Then proceeded to safra to bowl and play L4D. We were engrossed with playing till the shop was going to close. Midnight. I missed my last bus home so afew of us crashed dayson's place.

Visit JIANYE'S BLOG for the pics(:

CONGRATS TO BENNY LAU TIKO!

If you're really hot and trying all means to cool down...

A quick rough update due to laziness..

Peace out.

I WANT NICE ABs

2009-04-30T22:28:00.005+08:00

I made a deal with abang. If i make it to...

ITE: I would shave my head!
POLY: I'd cut my hair shoulder length short.
JC: SOFT CURLS! =D

I'm gona use this as my "motivation".*TwoThumbsUp*

The caterpillars in my stomach became butterflies! I was definately, without doubt, nervous for sports heats. It kept me pondering on how losing would be an ugly sight. What if you are the last. What if you fall down. What if you gave up. What if...

Sooner or later i still had to get over and done with it. My dear Sheree was not in shape for running as she was down with high fever and stomach flu. She so kindly cabbed down to school to bring a tees and shorts for the other girls. She also brought BANANAs for Arjun and I! =D Bananas are suppose to give you more energy or something, so A says. I was definately 'CMI' for the 100m dash but Aisyah was totally awesome! She took 1st place, as usual. I really look up to her. The 3years that i lack of excercise made me fat. But the 3years that she had not trained diddn't seem to change one bit! I love machik. The guys were totally awesome too! Ben was like 'speed' and Arjun was on fire! Both of the relay teams for our guys finished it FANTASTICALLY! We were leading both heats, no doubt.

"Have faith! No worries! nothing is impossible!" -sally.

This little rascal took over sheree and i was just awed by her speed! Seriously, i was shocked! I diddn't expect her to run so fast! We girls came in 2nd for heats. We'll improve(: 'Cos we're ready to be the best class this year! 'Our problem is that we have no problem.' Quoted by Botak.

Then i camwhored, again...

(photos to be uploaded by Mr. Tan)

its the wonder thats keeping the stars apart.

GREEN DAY

2009-04-29T21:32:00.001+08:00

I finally decided to GO GREEN today. Green bag, Green tee and jiejie's green watch! There was a last minute plan to watch X-men Origins: Wolverine with Sheree Dayson Arjun Marcus JianYe Chew Raj Glenn Aji and Darren. The show was really exciting, breath-taking and i couldn't take my eyes off the screen(other then entertaining my dear brother). I reckon you guys to go see! REALLY! The show is basically about how Wolverine (Hugh Jackman) get to be such a buff, brooding force of justice. This prequel shows the Marvel superhero entering the Mutant X program and making himself—and his sharp, shiny claws—indestructible to avenge the murder of his h..hh..HOT girlfriend (Lynn Collins)... Want generic explosions, motorcycle stunts and lots of yelling? This shows got it! Go on, watch it and you'll know!

Dinner with Sheree Arjun and JianYe after that. Walked all the way to an indian shop near Arjun's house while debating on who is hotter. The food? Simply 'SEDUP!', i would remark but all the carbo just went into my body, creating more fats. We were reminiscing our primary school days. Those good and bad times i would never forget. How all of us got influenced to become "bad people". Haha. It felt as tho i was living in the past. I love. I miss. I regret. The time just slipped pass our fingers...

Be nice.

Be forgiving.

Be loved.

unsightly effects

DRINK.DRANK.LITERALLY DRUNK

2009-04-25T14:31:00.001+08:00

Mummy and daddy woke me up rather early yesterday, just for breakfast! I needed my sleep but failed to gain it. Tired. Sigh. Everything in school seems to be going so fast. I need time to catch up. I have no time to catch up. I've been studying intensively for the upcoming midyears. Sometimes i question why do i even bother? Why am i putting in so much effort? But i remembered that i promised You i would...

I was accompanied by Sheree, Raj, JianYe and Dayson today. We studied at t.mart macs for 4hrs before heading to tampinese stadium. Was it worth? Yes, for me. We were trained by dear arjun who is suppose to be 'experienced' in this area, track&field. Im a lousy runner. Really slow. So i'll tell you all honestly that im not a big competiton(: haha.

I was late for Danielle's birthday party. Rushed, made daddy fetch me from the stadium and got a scolding on the way home. I was being irresponsible tho. The worst was that i took home jerome's wallet and handphone! Sorry...

Her vibrant jungle birthday cake

The party was fun. But i drank a little too much of wine and got rather tipsy and red. People were telling me that getting drunk was a sin. I apologise for making Jerome, Arjun, Sheree and JianYe to cycle down just to get his stuff late at night. They came to my house when i was 'drunk'. Sorry, again, that i wasn't a good host. We talked under the starry night. Getting "horny". LAUGHS. But i must say, i had fun(:

just one simple step

CHEERS

2009-04-23T14:54:00.000+08:00

There was lots of fun!

AND...

Awesome huh? 1st day that we actually did something right. Im proud of them. And im proud that we managed too...

So little time.
So much to do.

JUST FOR JANICE

2009-04-22T22:43:00.002+08:00

THANKYOU SO MUCH, GIRL. FOR STAYING UP TILL 12 JUST TO WISH ME(so you say) . 3RD YOU WERE! =D YOUR RANDOMNESS AND RETARDEDNESS JUST MAKES ME GO CRAZY! WISHING YOU ALL THE BEST IN YOUR LOVE LIFE WITH L. heh heh.

MUCHLOVE*

CUPCAKES FROM NANA&NAZ

2009-04-22T22:12:00.005+08:00

Quote of the day:
"CUPCAKES MAKE PEOPLE HAPPY!"

Thankyou so much abang &nana! The cupcakes are just delicious. Felt the sweetness and love.

sugar rush

WHATS UNITY?

2009-04-21T21:13:00.001+08:00

credits: Sheree, Debbie, Rebekah

u⋅ni⋅ty
/ˈyunɪti/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [yoo-ni-tee] Show IPA
–noun, plural -ties.

1. the state of being one; oneness.
2. a whole or totality as combining all its parts into one.
3. the state or fact of being united or combined into one, as of the parts of a whole; unification.
4. absence of diversity; unvaried or uniform character.
5. oneness of mind, feeling, etc., as among a number of persons; concord, harmony, or agreement.
6. (in literature and art) a relation of all the parts or elements of a work constituting a harmonious whole and producing a single general effect.

Synonyms: 1. singleness, singularity, individuality. 5. unison

SHIVER

2009-04-20T22:49:00.002+08:00

English oral prelim today. I'd be lying if i said "i think i did well...". The teachers gave us their feedbacks, which is suppose to help us improve. I so 'sway-ly' got HOD mdm caroline wong! First up in line to get tested by her. I prayed real hard not to screw up. She commented that my reading was loud and clear. And i had good attempt at intonation. BUT i had odd pauses occasionally. PIcture discussion was horrible. There was hardly anything to talk about tho. She said i made keen observations and did make inference. Oral discussion was just horrible for me! She mentioned that i was rambling! I thought talking alot was good. But me rambling?! HAHA! What a joke. But she did also commented that i was able to respond and elaborate when prompted.

This adorable security guard was slacking/sleeping. I HAD TO take a picture with him.

credits to arjun, my photographer.

bitch-fied

GIRL POWER

2009-04-19T19:24:00.007+08:00

We had a girls day out yesterday. Like, FINALLY everyone of us could make it! We did enjoyed ourselves. I met the babes on the train, on the way to bugis. Was suppose to catch 17 AGAIN there but sadly we missed the late afternoon time. Change of plans! So we lunched at some random, but really yummy, fish restaurant. Fatin and i had potato salad. I must remind that i'm not on a diet. Fatin is...

weird, BUT cool, pic of deb

Greatful to JianYe who helped us check the timing of the show to the nearest place. We blur-ly and lost-ly walked to suntec. Nearly got lost due to our poor sense of direction. Hoping real hard that we'll get lost so Maggie would pay for cab fare! x) Strollng there was fun, i swear. Even though it was really humid. The weather kills!

And so, 17AGAIN was a good show. Because he was so cute! *ahem* I was high on sugar AND high on zac! blush* The role he played was just admiring. I was praying so hard that he wouldn't kiss any of the girls. One wasn't pretty and the other was an older lady! Thank goodness he diddn. We girls had fun watching it. I agree with debs "catch it with your girlfriends. Rather then your boyfriends"

can he get any sexier or cuter than this?Oooh vanessa, you lucky girl...

The show ended rather late and we ruched to the esplanade rooftop to take pictures with mag's POLAROID! Time was spent sharing, catching up, bitching and sharing. Its been awhile because we hardly have time and after all the hectic schedules.

credits to deb

UNGLAMness

now we know whats debbie like...

sexy love

SWEET SEVENTEEN

2009-04-16T18:39:00.004+08:00

My special day with the greatest wonders that i discovered and never wish to lose,
my dearest friends. The life would never be amazing without them.

All my loves that i am blessed with(:

From CHEW&SARAH, i got a lovely white tee from 'Punk Star' that so sexy-ly fits me! The colours Black&White just spells my name and the design so abstract that a second look is needed. And of 'cos, with text messages so sweet and personal.

From RAJ, my favourite GODIVA chocolate, a lovely song he sung and unending birthday wishes.

From LEE SENG, a matching wallet that fitted so well with the tee that needs to be worned and carried together!

From SHAMEL, my very own guitar strap!

From JEREMY CHIU, personally-made birthday card, from Prints, that made me embarrass in school with not one but 2 lovely poem he wrote.

From KHIDHIR, B&J voucher!

From JULLIAN, home-baked MEGA-BIG brownie which just tasted so yummily-tasty, personally delivered to my house!

From YONG, pretty pictures, with much love, attached with cards that was written with heart felt words that put me to tears.

From MARK, a trip to a club!(soon to come..)

From GODMA, my favourite bestest most delicious Home-made Oreo Cheese Cake!

From MY DEAR FAMILY, chocolate birthday cake from Cannelle that i was crazy about and wanted.

To Raj:
My dearest friend, the best listening ears you've ever got, specially for me. We never fail to talk about everything under the sun. All the selfless thoughts you gave, for me. Being the MOST "K.PO" person i've met BUT the best encourager and care-er. I just could not regret having met you. All the bitchy and P&C talks till late at night just must not stop. For every single thought. Your thoughts and Your effort. They're heartwarming. I love and thank you so much for this wonderful friendship we have. Rock on dude!

To CHEW:
You were the first to text me! =D You're the sweetest 'husband' i've ever had, ever. The retarded faces you ALWAYS show, your laughter, smiles and jokes just chases the rain away. Especially the lovely music you make. Being so sweet and thoughtful as always. Never forgetting that i have never frowned when im around you. This friendship just gets better every single day since the day we were not as close. My BIGGEST blessing, you are. So loved, so huggable, so chew(you)! Much love i give to you, me guitar TyrelSC!

To My 3 Babes:
Girls, i really wish and pray that this relationship we have will never go away. I wanna grow old with you, all of you. Become aunties and sit at the void deck updating each other with the lastest gossip. The colours so bright and beautiful you babes add to my life. Those beautiful memories we had. Crazy moments we spent. And pretty pictures that i kept. I love love love much! The joy you girls bring to my life is like a fountain, falling endlessly. You three are more than just important in my life. I love you, you and you! So much that i wana say, just wana pour out my ENDLESSLOVE to y'all! Hugs and kisses*

To Arjun:
Dude, the sweet memories i thank you for. For the ups and downs we've been through throughout the years we've known each other. But I do hope you know it deep down that these are just parts and parcels. And now i know who would catch me when i fall. Muchlove, hot ass!

To Dayson:
Many thanks for your friendship. All the common sense statements that you've influenced me and the times when you just woke me up. Thankyou, shen!

To Jian Ye:
I'll remember the promise you made me. My bestest photographer!

To Sarah:
Such a sweetheart...

To Jeremy:
Mr. Nice guy. You're such a gentleman. You are never mean to me. Haha. Always reminding me about the past. Those good and weird times as friends since primary3. I salute you!

To Glenn:
You rock biker! Specially celebrating my birthday even tho you are known to be 'anti-social'.

To Sheree:
You're loved, my dear. Forgiving every single moment because you're simply just lovely. That pretty face i won't forget and the beautiful heart that just contridicts you. Haha. For being so thoughtful on my birthday. Sometimes we may not be close or may not be as loving but i hope that you'll know that i love you. Stay sweet babe!

To Jullian:
Your brownies so sweet, that i almost forgot what bitter taste like. I'm blessed to be your friend. I'm blessed to have known you. Girl you're loved, so loved that i wana live with the joy you bring to everyone. Always and forever.

To Yong:
The memories we had, i will never forget. The love you gave that i never expected. I have so much to say but i don't know where to start... Thankyou for all that you've done. I appreciate so much!

To EVERYONE WHO CELEBRATED MY BIRTHDAY &MADE MY DAY:
I LOVE YOU GUYS! And i mean it. The fun, peace, joy and laughter you bring to my life just couldn make my seventeenth birthday any better! LOVELOVELOVE.

baby seventeen<3*

SEVENTEEN ON FIFTEEN

2009-04-15T17:58:00.000+08:00

Uncle Chua and Shree!

Hey (my lovely) sarah sarah...

Cute lil Dayson

Mr. Photographer

I failed to take a multiple shot of them striking a hot sexy pose!

The brothers!

JianYe Marcus Daniel
Credits to Chew's specs

Happy sweet seventeen to me!

16 GOING ON 17

2009-04-14T19:29:00.001+08:00

You wait little girl
On an empty stage
For fate to turn the light on
Your life little girl is an empty page
that men will want to write on (To write on)

You are 16 going on 17
Baby its time to think
Better beware
Be canny and careful
Baby you're on the brink

You are 16 going on 17
Fellows will fall in line

And grueways and cads
Will offer you fruit and wine

Totally unprepared are you
To face a world of men
Timid and shy and scared are you
Of things beyond your ken

You need someone
Older and wiser
Telling you what to do
I am 17 going on 18
I will take care of you

I am 16 going on 17
I know that i'm naive
Fellows I meet may tell me I'm sweet
And willingly I believe

I am 16 going on 17 innocent as a rose
Bachelor dandies
Drinkers of brandies
What do I know of those

Totally unprepared am I
To face a world of men
Timid and shy and scared am I
Of things beyond my ken

I need someone
Older and wiser
Telling me what to do
You are 17 going on 18
I will depend on you

DEBBIE DEAR'S DAY

2009-04-13T19:46:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY MY DEAR GIRL!!!

punksters

ARJUN(:

JEROME!

silly lil' girl

"You're finally 17 babe! The sexiest and most wonderful years we've been through together. I hate you BUT i love you. Haha. Happy Birthday To Us! =D Butterfly kisses*"

make it right

LIM LIGHT

2009-04-11T20:48:00.007+08:00

A little early but it doesn't matter. Daddy &mummy couldn't make it on the actual day so we had to celebrate in advance. Sakae at airport it was. We patiently waited till 9.30 for the dinner buffet. The wait was definately worth while.

Oh. And did i mention that I LOVE MY FAMILY?! =D

facing my giants

ALL MY HOPES &DREAMS

2009-04-10T18:19:00.005+08:00

THIS WAS HOW BAD MY SECOND BRUISE WAS!

Good friday was spent with Raj, Jeremy&Jordan. Woke up late and forced my butt up to head straight to Vivo City and meet the lovelys. We watched Fast and Furious4! After seeing the film my mind was left spinning, there were so many images of Latinos to digest in Fast and Furious. Reviving our childhood days where we would plead our dear parents to buy TOYS for us to fill our room...

FLOWER POWER!

poor patrick was being 'abused'

I WANT A BIG TEDDY!

THE couple.

Mr. Old oak Tree

TIME TO PLAY DRESS UP!

Raj's craze about Hannah Montana. Making me his 'model'.

How disgusting was this. The package was not opened!

I thank thee...

DAMAGED

2009-04-08T11:40:00.004+08:00

Played basketball and volleyball with sheree, raj, marc, dayson, aji, jian ye, yi xiang &greg. Time passed. It did try to make myself forget and set aside some unfinished 'business'. Fun, i enjoyed. Love, bruised.

i waited for so long

TIME PASSES BY

2009-04-02T22:30:00.006+08:00

Lately, i have been good. I try real hard to be happy. Confessions and Confusions. Love and Hate. Stress and Slack. I do feel it! I force myself to study with the big change that has happened. I pray real hard everyday for my boy who once was so dear to me. I felt horrible the whole day. The man-ly voice just made it worse. I'd be lying if i said cheer went well. Dayson nearly fell face down on the floor and jerome dropped on me, literally drop! It could be disaster if the 'experienced' people were not there. Played volleyball with the gang and later the vb guys. My arm got bruised and its swelling like crazy!

sigh* it hurts inside and outside

its that what you need

FOOLED

2009-04-01T21:39:00.002+08:00

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS!

Leon tried to fool me after what happened in the library.. *class secret* But it was a two-way april fools! =D

(apparently, i wasn't the one replying!)

L: Hey. I think i am starting to like you. Do you feel a thing for me?

R: Ya i like you, you fat girl!

L: Huh? Whose the fat girl? Winy?

R:Winy what Winy. Winy your mother name arh? Winy tan.

L: Answer my question =(

R: I think i also have feelings for you(:

L: Really seriously? =)

R: Yes fat girl(:

L: Janice? She's not with me now.

R: So you really like me...?

L: Yea. Not lying.

R: -diddn reply-

L: Sorry if i scare you. Just tell me the truth please really wana know. Doesnt matter if you reject me.

L: You don't like me right?

R: I love you

L: Really?

R: Yes

L: Haha i am totally kidding luh. Happy April fool! Haha. You guessed it right?

R: No i thought you were serious.

L: Really ah? Sorry rebekah.. Really my bad.. Was just kidding only sorry.

-leon called-

-chew picked up and acted as my daddy-

-leon hung up-

R: Sorry you called my dad picked up. You called for?

L: Yeah just wanted to say sorry. Diddn mean to play this prank on you. Sorry.

R: I don't think its very funny. I thought you were being honest with me. Actually forget it luh. Do whatever you want, i dont care.

L: Hey hey sorry. I really really diddn mean it. I am truly sorry. Please forgive me. Dont be angry. Please?

L: Hey beck dont be angry anymore alright? I am really sorry.

L: Hey beck. Please dont be angry? I know you must be mad at me, I am really sorry.

I bet you felt guilty huh leon! x) WE DID IT!

Chew Raj &I went to Jillian's house to bake Peanut Butter Cookies! We had much fun. Too many pictures to post. So...

Visit PICTURES to get a glimps of what we did(:

much april love,

becks*

IT ENDS TONIGHT

2009-03-30T22:31:00.002+08:00

I absent myself from school for the past 3 school days. High fever on tuesday. Mid-fever on wednesday. Low-fever on thursday. No fever on friday! I continued to stay sick by breaking a little rule and indulged myself in the "massive attack"(shared with des). Closed one eye and suffered more later.

I depended on drowsy medicine to put me to sleep these few days. Not insomnia. I am tired of it and its passionless limbs that drap over my bed in a lethargic state. I love Mummy oh so much! And i really thank God for her! She was there when i was feeling the range from suicide, heartbreak, lose of love, lose of faith and loosing myself. Even when i bit my tongue trying not to say anything. She knew. The dried up tear path on my face gave me away. I clasp tightly in her arms, pouring out everything that i felt. A hole in my heart that needs fixing. Mummy is the best! smiles* All my wants were washed down the drain. But everthing i had, stayed in place. Love memories has traced the outline of every place. For now, time has forgotten me. Yet our memories linger, and love remembers. I am lost. And its definately true that we have to get lost to find ourself. Not all scars show. Not all wounds heal. Another picture to burn?.

Blessings i grant you.
.
i'm a mess, and i know it

SWEET MERCIES

2009-03-25T18:10:00.000+08:00

LATE UPDATE:

School without my dear girl(s) who prepared for their performance really early. The guys were really entertaining me. Laughter filled the air. From tatoos to getting possessed.. I gambled a great sense of protection in the air. I was "guarded" by 7 bodyguards i greatly appreciate. =D

Synergy `09 at The Esplanade.

unglam glam
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-->
Seng revealing his dirty little secret BUT got rejected

Dinner at LJS

with gloria jeans coffee(:

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Leon always attempting to spoil a photo! laughs.

DAYSON!!

the seed i receive, i will sow

I HATE ME

2009-03-19T18:59:00.001+08:00

I wasted my time leaving for tamp. All i had was 15mins! Study was on my mind &i did try but... I got fed up &took a cab all the way to SSC to study. Bowling with my cousins was really awesome. Due to the long distance, we hardly spend time together. "So near yet so far". Shall let the pictures do the talking(:

Failure atempts, by my lovely cousin tess, trying to take a nice picture of me.
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the final product

-TessaNY

-Rachel

-Teri

-Reuben

-ME(:
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tessa dear
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&
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the cutie teri

sweet cheeryo love

REBEL

2009-03-14T22:56:00.003+08:00

It was Friday, 13th again. But this time, i was not unlucky at all!(thank goodness) I feel ashamed announcing. Rebekah is rebellious. I left house too early for Founder's Day. Probably trying to run away from the unfinished homework. It was unexpected. Thank goodness Mark came down to accompany me for the really long and boring ceremony. We crashed his house to kinda sleepover(eventually did). "Coming Soon" wasn't as scary as i thought it would be but 'The Face' haunted Mark crazily. oops* Then this really hilarious and hysterical video i was introduced to made us tear and created abs. Watch it!

Oh happy day, when loved ones are finally smiling! Making good use of their time. Much much loved!

sealed with a kiss

IT'S IRRITATING

2009-03-08T17:20:00.002+08:00

it's irritating when people want to be in the spotlight
it's irritating when people pretend to be something they're not
it's irritating when people thing they're more superior
it's irritating when people exclude you from the conversation
it's irritating when people whisper infront of you
it's irritating when people don't notice that you're there
it's irritating when people say that you're their best bud but don't even tell you stuff
it's irritating when people drift further and furthur away
it's irritating when people don't understand how u feel
it's irritating when people lie
it's irritating when you are scared of someone but u don't wanna be
it's irritating when you wanna say something but dunno how to say it
it's irritating when u want something so badly, you never get it
it's irritating when u see somebody else with what u want
it's irritating when that somebody else doesn't cherish it
it's irritating when u regret a decision
it's irritating when u wanna cry but u can't...
-beck-

OUR TIME

2009-03-05T13:56:00.007+08:00

One thing i was sure about, he was living in the moment not the future. The right between right from wrong became blur. I was unsure of what i was doing. Love is what you said. But love would never end this way. Forgiving myself is essential. There is a tendency in all of us to hold ourselves more accountable than we do to others. Perhaps i have been one who can justify forgiving others, even for a heinous offense, yet i find no justification in forgiving myself for an equal or lesser offense. Maybe i believe that forgiving myself is not even a consideration because i think i must hold myself in a state of constant remembrance, least i forget. Perhaps i believe there is a price, some form of life-long penance that you must pay.

.
sorry seems to be the hardest word

2009-03-05T08:57:00.001+08:00

"Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop."

CLOSER

2009-02-28T14:40:00.007+08:00

"there is no fear in love. but perfect love drives out fear,

because fear has to do with punishment.

the one who fears is not made perfect in love." (1 john 4:18)

All of us should reach out and touch someone's heart every day. Whether its direct or indirectly. People do love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. Don't they? Well, i need it and want it!
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Love grows within you, and so does beauty. For love is the beauty of the soul. Love is not a single emotion, but a multitude of feelings. I protest.
.

Some of us do not have the ability to display emotions as easily as others. But hey, that could be forgiven! It doesn't make the feelings any less real. Isn't it the same as "if you jump, i'll jump too"? Just when we give up on finding Love, we discover it didn't give up on us.
.

I have to agree that perfect love has no fear - quoted by dear grace.
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Who knows?! My enemies may be the ones that taught me how to love...
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The words that we speak sometimes may not be the words we want to say, right? We can't always take away our lover's tears, but we can try. There is nothing in this physical world that will ever be perfect for us, ever.

Does love exist as a reflection? When we show love and kindness toward others, it not only makes others feel loved and cared for, but it helps us also to develope inner happiness and peace. Perhaps what we see in Love, and derive from Love, is the commonality within each of our hearts.

The night has a thousand eyes, And the day but one;

Yet the light of the bright world dies, With the dying sun.

The mind has a thousand eyes, And the heart but one;

Yet the light of a whole life dies, When love is done.

Praying hard for the passing clouds to go away. I spent the day with Debbie, Jordan, Jeremy, Raj and Leon. Its been about 3years since we've gone out together, a clique is what they call it. Memories were unforgettable &loved. Skating &cycling we did despite the slippery floor. I fell on my bum &was rewarded with a big bruise! The rain diddn't stop us from having fun. Everytime a new unavoidable excitement surprised me. Leaving marks that hurt me good.
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I ponder too much on all the things that i want and need. I lifted my head high wishing for the rain to wash my worries and pain away. I loved you. I promised i would be there. I diddn't leave. But...
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"I'm wanting this for sure. And i'm begging for nothing more..."
.

It grabbed my attention, there was a connection that i couldn't let go. I thought that this thing we had would never change but i diddn't have the confidence to say it. I don't know anymore, don't know who you think i am, for sure. A time machine i want. Grant me, badly.

I'd finish it strong

FAMOUS

2009-02-25T21:18:00.001+08:00

What could have been done? I hurt my own self in the end. I learnt that the art of losing something isn't hard to master. Because sometimes it takes losing something to realise what you have. A trip to the park wasn't so bad. A happy day i spent, till it had to end. I'm sorry i frowned, baby.

i carry your heart,

i carry it in my heart.

LOVE

2009-02-22T14:22:00.001+08:00

I learnt to love in 5steps.

1. Say it. When you say the words "i love you", it should carry with you the desire to show someone that you love him/her, not what you simply want to feel. When you say it, make sure you really mean it and are willing to do anything for that special person.

2. Empathize. Put yourself in someone else's shoes. Rather than impose your own expectations or attempt to control them, try to understand how they feel, where they come from, and who they are. Realize how they could also love you back just as well.

3. Love unconditionally. If you cannot love another person without attaching stipulations, then it is not love at all, but deep-seated opportunism (one who makes the most of an advantage, often unmindful of others). If your interest is not in the other person as such, but rather in how that person can enhance your experience of life, then it is not unconditional. If you have no intention of improving that person’s life, or allowing that person to be themselves and accepting them as they are, and not who you want them to be, then you are not striving to love them unconditionally.

4. Expect nothing in return. That doesn't mean you should allow someone to mistreat or undervalue you. It means that giving love does not guarantee receiving love. Try loving just for the sake of love. Realize that someone may have a different way of showing their love for you, do not expect to be loved back in exactly the same way.

5. Realize it can be lost. If you realize that you can lose the one you love, then you should have a greater appreciation of what you have. Think of how lucky you are to have someone to love.

I concluded that Love is difficult to define. How do you avoid confusing it with infatuation or lust?

the end...

I REALISED

2009-02-20T17:00:00.007+08:00

YOU'RE SO DAMN GAY

Thousand apologies on those emo post. Becks life isn suppose to be "moody", i remind. Leaving school made me feel much better. Thank God arjun could pass a message that i was sick. Lunched at BK before dragging my feet to Mark's gym. You can't blame me for being a lazy bum after everything thats happened. It did make me feel an incy bit more energetic tho(&less flabby). laughs* Made arrangements with my loved ones to have dinner at East Coast. We walked there, as mark had endless complaines, for a budget dinner. The sea breeze oh so lovely &the night so young. I did enjoy the date since its been quite awhile. I smiled with glee as a big hug was left with love. Putting the past behind you &moving on with so much more...

Sometimes it takes losing something

to realise what you have

I LOST YOU

2009-02-14T01:17:00.004+08:00

HAPPY(not so) VALENTINES DAY

& SINGLE AWARENESS DAY

I wanted to look strong &prove to you that i could stand on my own two feet but i just couldn hold back my tears. I apologise sincerely. Silence in the air when it had to end, sadly. I tried to ignore, i really tried hard. We heard about all those relationships that weren't true &i wanted to set it right. But i couldn tell anyone how i feel.

Well, apparently it was suppose to be a singles day 'celebration'. But there were definately exceptions &as you might know, i was not exactly celebrating AT ALL. But heres a really big THANKYOU!! to Debbie, Jerome, Shawn, Glenn, Arjun, Raj, Leon, Jeremy, Jordan, Dayson, JianYe, Danker, Sheree, Darren, Nat, Benny, YiXiang &Joel(Should be everyone but sorry if i missed out anyone). BIG WIDE SMILE* "THANKYOU FRIENDS! You guys have filled my day with lots of fun peace joy &laughter! I'm sorry if i made you guys worry about me &spoiled the day, but thankyou for being there..." Countless crazy shots we had. Leaving it with much love &memories.

I gladly announce that i was offically FAT. Many rounds of the "EAT ALL YOU CAN" buffet at Sakura. I must protest that I WAS NOT DEPRESSED! I just wanted to eat till my hearts content, i swear. I diddn realise that he was THAT hot now! Its been awhile till i saw a close up. He "WOWed" me extremely. Jian Ye bought a pretty rose for me!! &Glenn made me realise that i was stupid. The night ended with a big bang! Thankyou Mummy for picking me up at such a late hour.

take a stand

I BELIEVE

2009-02-13T20:30:00.006+08:00

I ignored those silly remarks about it being friday 13th where badluck occurs BUT i must admit that i, 99.5%, agree that friday 13th is an unlucky day. Definately not being supersticious, i swear. Merely just stating a fact! I diddn't realise i was frowning badly the whole day. Through the fun blickering, a sudden shock, like a gun shot, came along. Then cries. Have i really been erased? I gladly laid my phone aside, hoping it was all just another nightmare.

A quick scent dashed passed, damn! I smiled reluctantly when my lovely friends acted foolish just to see me, at least, giggle. Hey! What are friends for right? Someone please look me in the eyes &tell me that i'll be okay because i want to be! "The truth hurts, but a lies worst" flashed through my mind. It did take 10% of my 'depressed state' away tho. I'd rather hurt myself than hurt you. Tried to take my mind off it by making my mind busy, gazing at no where. Pushed myself too. I really thank God for friends in high &low places.

A pretty heart balloon i got from Shawn Chew(my very first valentines day gift, oh so loved) which did make me smile mildly. Dear Song Kai &Raj were present to cheer me up, ALOT. Turning my cries into frowns into smiles and finally laughter! Not forgetting my dearest girlfriend, Debbie, for always being there for me. It would be legal to drown my sorrows in about 1year2months2days(desperately waiting, impatiently)! According to janice, chocolates will do the trick. But according to chew, songs would(?)! Then i realised i started humming to the song tonight... &i felt a tear.

My fingers crossed, eyes closed, wishing real hard that this was all just a scary nightmare that was not meant to happen. My valentine? Im sorry...

dont wana live a lie

WHATS THE POINT

2009-02-12T21:20:00.004+08:00

I tried to turn a deaf ear. Definately tried my best! Headed to shelter thinking that all would be fine. I cried my heart out, deep inside... I gasp the last breath before giving up. Eventually, i did. Knock on the head to wake me up from my terrible nightmare. I thought it was over! Sometimes nagging are meant to tell you that people do care. I cared. He cared. Everyone cared! I hid my face in embarrassment, when it was not about me at all. It was not explicit, i swear. I felt a smile, thankfully. Loved ones, like friends, will always be there for you. Wherever, whenever.

only fools rush in

SMILING

2009-02-10T20:00:00.003+08:00

Oh happy day! BIG SMILE* I was smiling naturally, finally. PE was the best with the lovely 5B girls. Its rather surprising that the unbelieveable became believeable! Yes, surprising i'd say.. Peer pressure was prickling me insanely! I rejected Synergy Night, hurtfully. Last period of the day &sleepyness triggered in a flash. I doodled my way out of "lala land" trying to pay really close attention. Lending a listening ear is what i'd always try to do(?). Love flew pass the thick layer of smoke, reminding me that "beauty is in the eyes of the beholder". I did treasure every moment, knowing that i must! Admires &blinded.

I certainly am blessed with great friends! Darren Seow Wei Chong was influencing me to go nuts when i reached shelter. Laughter, the best medicine! Cheek bones hurt badly with all the really crazy videos i enjoyed. I laughed till i teared. Here's one...

A baby i really adore!

Leaving it with memories i had... So, its alright now i hope. New found friends i diddn know i'd have. Ooh wells, I'll be constantly reminding myself that its all going to be just fine because it definately did get better in time! Thank God!

tears of joy

OVER

2009-02-09T22:29:00.004+08:00

"In the heart of every woman,

there is room for a pet.

Dogs and cats provide solace and affection...

How rare is the man who knows that

the pet of choice for today's woman

is the intellengent in noble pig"

make me believe

GUESS WHOS BACK

2009-02-07T18:44:00.016+08:00

IM SORRY DEARS!!

Its been 9865214278246... donkey days, months, years since ive posted a decent &'interesting' post. Oops. My excuses are rubbish tho.. "I've been rather 'busy' &laziness struck me many umpteen times!!" grin* Many naggy complains for not updating. So, i'm making it up to you lovelys out there!! Including my newest dearest pretty &sexy friend, JOSLYN.TANG!(:
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So, i've been enjoying school(: Every day a different thing! You'll never get bored of it, i'll say. Finally "awesome" year for me, us(?) Chinese New Year wasn't different AT ALL! 'Bai' until 'Hei'. HAHA. Then it was back to school to withstand the annoying nagging from every single teacher in school. Im highly irritated. I broke my own promise to myself that i would start studying after CNY..) Failure, yet again. I concluded that promises could sometimes be hard to keep.

First Fabulous February was spent with my dearest girl(love you dear)! We had a girls day out shopping(for food). BIG smiles! Definately stored in my memory. She's the sunshine when im raining.. scratch head* Does anyone know that there is a rooftop at The Esplanade?! Bie &dear boy doesn't. Its definately a must to go there, guys! The place is just simply relaxing &romantic(?) We cam-whored, as usual! xD I'm posting this WITH LOVE FOR DEBBIE SIM! Many pics, i must warn..

FROLICK yogurt is a definate "MUST TRY"
singing ah peks were good!

bie acting all fascinated by the pic

AT THE ROOF TOP!

some how, i always catch a weird pic of her! =X

much love bie(:

the way you hold me

SHAKE IT

2009-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

p.s i love my family

blessed

DIEDED

2008-12-29T00:59:00.005+08:00

&so,

I've been good,

highly favoured,

richly blessed,

&deeply loved!

lazy me..

when it comes to an end

I HUGGED CLAIRE

2008-12-17T00:00:00.003+08:00

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN CLAIRE!!(:

When i got home from boring malacca, i received an immediate msg telling me about claires birthday surprise on the 17. Her birthday surprise was kind of a success! Kenneth was so anxious before the birthday girl came in &he said "I'm so excited that i need to pee so badly!" HAHAH! He ran out too fast &we surprised her sister instead luh. But claire was surprised too(: Pat bought really awesome cakes from Chanele. Tiramisu &Rum biscuit. We had 3 surprises: 1)CLAIRE's 2)Claire's daddy 3)Claire's parents annivarsary. It all falls on the same day! Calida, MISO(yvette) &i stayed over! Claires attic room is awesome! &i love her bed! haha. Pat has got most of the pics &im waiting for her to send me. BUT heres a few!

the balloon prep &slack.

Kenneth doing the dishes! (surprised huh..)

Kenneth's dirty doing.. hahah.

ME.MISO

CALIDA.MEL

JENNA

Starring Kenneth's shades!

My sleeping PRINCE CHARMING! grin*

ariel . jenna . mel

miso . me . zeke

grace c . claire . grace g

MISO IS LOVED!

1mth passed so fast

INVISIBLE

2008-12-11T19:00:00.001+08:00

I was like mummy to the 3lovely musketeers. Went to school to buy their uniform &long pants(Ooo, time passes so fast). The stupid security guard diddn allow us to go in cos we were not in school u. urgh* wasted my time going there &i had to bother poor dayson. I went to church in the evening to visit my girlfriends. Guo Nian started chanting his name to me which scared me away. HAHA. MALAYSIA TOMORROW! Excited.

live MY life

I SPARKEL

2008-12-10T03:15:00.002+08:00

DELAYS! A few pics from the camp. Im rather lazy to post everyone of them, so..

everyone thinks that i "influenced" my lil' angels to become camwhores. laughs.

"i diddn ok.."

HAHA. "Im so sorry shawn.." i made him eat 4hot dogs while we were playing

"zhong zi mi mah"(or however you call it..)

Claire's bling bling fone! (i love..!)

JANSEN!!

I ate like 14 of this really delicious donuts! slurp*

korkor couldn stop me.. heh heh.

Jansen, my pretty Lydia

&bestest guyfriend Kenneth(looking all retarded.haha.)

the LOVELIEST LIMs!

(Lucas.ME.Lydia.little Lisa)

korkor-thankyou for all the "inspiring" stories. hahah.

joel-you were the weirdest daddy i ever met! =D THANKS!

sarah-my dearest girl. Be strong k!(:

amanda-i thot the hand thing was rather racist. grin*

kenneth-you slept right after 1msg only luhh! grrh

darius- MY BESTEST COUSIN, you're loved!

vanessa-CHIPSTER KAKI!

guo nian-there was practically NOTHING in the sky to look at.

kevin-your jacket is loved HAHA. stripee!

jansen-B11! &pretty please send me the pics from your cam..

yan-your oreo cheesepie was really good, jie!

grace-my babies diddn give me 'orh ceh's.

my dear boy-THANKYOU FOR THE TEH PENG, LOVE!! =D

fountain of blessings

SWEET SCENT

2008-12-09T22:33:00.012+08:00

Talked to sufyan, who was daddy-ing his 2little adorable twin cousins, while i was going crazy BUT i was reminded that "CRAZY IS GOOD. CRAZY IS WONDERFUL. CRAZY IS BEAUTIFUL. THE WHOLE WORLD NEEDS CRAZY." So, if you think im crazy.. Read this again. =)

Shulings Wedding rehearsal was fantastic. I'm known to be the 'DANCE COORDINATOR'. laughs. Rather embarrassing bcos i wont be around to attend her wedding. "sorry shuling.." So, i told her to cancle my name. =D We've got a surprise for the newly weds on that day! heh heh heh. There were really adorable kids at the rehearsal today. The japanese girls were the most ADORABLE! Ooo. I would LOVE to take one of them home. They sounded so cute when they were speaking in japanese! grin* I've got like many many many pictures of them! haha.

aiyo.. she's so adorable!! &so loved!

Arent they adorable? I like the japanese boy too.. He's so handsome! shreak*

i'll make every second count

TAKE ME BY THE HAND

2008-12-08T22:12:00.019+08:00

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY ADIK!!(:

&SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI to all my malay friends out there. Rather long time since ive blogged! My days are rather "ON &HAPPENING" now. hahah. In short, this was what i did for the pass few MIA days. I must say that "Laziness has taken over me!"

29th nov, saturday: I woke up rather early to catch my free "MADAGASCAR escape 2 africa". Wasn that fantastic tho.. Beef noodle at *somewhere*. was really good! I shall be postin pictures of the camp soon.

30th nov, sunday: Had dinner with THE YONG FAMILY!!! =D They're finally back! cheers*

1st dec, monday: Watched "Body of Lies" with my dearest boy. My reactions for the show are the same as to "Burn after reading".

2nd dec, tuesday: Was NUA-ing with love at my place.
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3rd dec, wednesday: SLEEPOVER at edlyns house! I met a new friend. Mel! Ooo, she's really sweet &pretty. I had the awesome-est fun-est time +i found out something really cheesy, because of awesome friends! laughs. Selene'o is mean! grin*

acting like edna mode from "I Heros"(Incredibles)-according to grace. laughs.

4th dec, thursday: Went to town with my lovelings(bie,mag,dayson&merv) to celebrate maggie's sweeeet 16! =D stupid mervin dissapeared. BUT there was free starbucks! &i "collected" my CARAMEL WAFFLES from dearest girl! Ooo. *yummy*

DEBBIEEEE!!

"no korkor.. i diddn highlight my hair.."

yummy caramel waffel!

5th dec, friday: Jiejie left for JB. Yong came over to go joggin. It was really pathetic(trust me..). the first time after 1wk since ive used the com. Rather busy(not really..) HAHAHA.

6th dec, saturday: CITY HARVEST!!! Rev. Dr. John Avanizini is really annointed. I am going to Goshan!(: &stones can talk.

7th dec, sunday: I HIGHLY RECOMMEND CHIPSTERS! =D Its my no.1 favourite junk food now. laughs. I was totally obessed with it.

8th dec, monday: My family cooked pasta! It was certainly mouth wateringly delicious! laughs. &I FINALLY HAD MY MISTY MOORING DRY WHITE WINE! =D

mummy's BEST homemade mushroom soup! &pasta gravy done by me!(:

camwhore-ing with my favourite white wine. LOVE!

indescribable feeling

BLOOPERS NIGHT

2008-11-27T00:00:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAGGIE DEAR!!(:

"Ooh. Im sorry i couldn be there on the actual day &wished you later.. But hey! Better late than never right(: You've been such a blessing my dear. Thankyou for all the craziness peace joy &laughter. &for being there when i needed someone, like you.. I LOVE YOU BABEH!"

sent from above

KISSED

2008-11-25T10:00:00.005+08:00

Finaly got the pics. hahah. THANKS JIE! lovelove.

(jie &i going INSANE after dancing. LAUGHS)

(i love germaine more!) =P

(the lovely angelsss)

thankyou:

jie: for being our photographer

abby jie: for the sweet kisses

germaine: for helping with the choreography

deborah: for adding spunk to my life

lil' danielle &annabelle: for being so sweet

A.serene: for organising this event

A.margarete: for being our personal driver for the day

deedee: for being 'ANGEL GABRIEL'

louis(DONG): for giving really sarcastic comments

susanna: for the tickles &smiles

A.Pik Yee: for the yummy cupcakes!

sparkling diamonds

SAVE ME

2008-11-24T23:05:00.007+08:00

I lack of sleep these few days. REALLY lacking of alot of sleep. I just needed a good night rest for one night but to no avail. This whole week will be hectic &i'll have to get up earliest at 7! =/ I got up at 12 today thanks to Joel(: who spoiled a really wacky &funky dream! laughs. Heated up chilled pizza for lunch, because daddy couldn buy lunch, while doing my cards for christmas. Then being a pig again, i went back to sleep. hahah. Dear boy woke me up to meet up(thanks alot huh, ma'am! hahah.)! He was full of nonsense &telling himself jokes that diddn really make me laugh. =D Dumbdumb bumped his nose real hard. heh heh.

Bored

Boredom

BORINGNESS!

one in a million

LAUGH ALONG

2008-11-23T11:20:00.003+08:00

Shack. 6hours of sleep wasnt enough today. Service was really interesting! Pastor Johnny Lim, from China, came to give sermon. I must say he was really REALLY entertaining. He was really cute telling jokes, especially with his China accent. laughs. After listening to his sermon, i realise that China really needs ALOT of help. &people actually literally smuggled bibles into China! Scary huh. It was a bad day to wear a skirt. Because i needed to help shift things for the camp this wed. Korkor laughed at me &HE STEPPED ON MY FEET!! Grrhh. While Dong kept giving me wrong instructions(thanks luhhh..) that i had to keep shifting here &there. I had dinner with dee &family at Raffles Town Club. I ate the yummy Beef cheese burger(highly recommended!) =D Dee ordered Nasi Goreng that was suppose to come with 2pieces of chicken but ended up with 2fishballs. hahah. Aunty.A complained after that &the innocent waitor looked so poor thing! Dee then had DURIAN ice kachang bleah* &they tricked me by saying its vanilla ice cream so i took a scoop. GOSH! you wouldn wana know my reaction after that! laughs. It tasted so horrible! Serve deedee right for freezing later on. =P Sunday Joys. My eyes are can hardly open now.. *snores*

lost &found

MOON DANCER

2008-11-22T11:00:00.003+08:00

Mummy &daddy were talking to me about my "so-called" future today. I'd really like to pursue in dance. Melbourne University(VCA) would be my no.1 choice! Scanned through the website &i think i was impressed(?). I remember my dearest Perlyn&i wanted to dance together, like forever! Shes so missed everyday. We used to dance together, most of the time, when i was at Crestar. We could have stayed "best of friends forever" if i hadn't left Crestar. sigh. I would really like to slap myself for leaving! *BIG SLAPS* If it was not for SAJC's concert, i wouldn have met her. =) We just HAD TO take a picture together(with me looking so 'unglam'..)!!

shes not THAT much taller than me. She's wearing heels ok!

"My, still, bestest lovely Pearlyn.. You are always making me smile with love &always there for me when i was so fragile. I really thankyou for those PRECIOUS memories that was stored in my heart. You have been a tremendous blessing to me. We must meet up one day to catch up on ALOT of stuff. You're loved &missed."

DANCE was reallyy awesome today! I pulled my thigh muscle again(i diddn stretch properly..). It diddn turn out as bad as i thought it would. Lyrical was so touching! Tho abby jie &i screwed up our solos. hahah. Im waiting for abby jie to send me the many pics b4 i post them. Yesterday, i scalded my hand while trying to cook my very own dinner(instant noodles..). Dear boy was kinda guiding me through. laughs. Thankyou, love. Mmmuacks* The sausage was not cooked properly &the soup was diluted! I added soya sause, thinking it would taste better, BUT it turned out tooo salty. I threw away everything &ate muffins instead. heh heh. First attempt failed but "Well done beckie!" pat head* I shall take a 1week break from dance. Its been really tiring. "orh-ceh"s everywhere, sprained(weak) ankles, pulled muscles. hahah. I make dancing sound so dangerous.

make-up on my finger tips

LOVE FOUND ME

2008-11-21T19:15:00.010+08:00

Find someone who calls you beautiful instead of hot,

who calls you back when you hang up on him,

who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,

or will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the one who kisses your forehead,

who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,

who holds your hand in front of his friends,

who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on.

One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares

and how lucky he is to have YOU.

The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her.

drink drank drunk!

THIS IS REALLY ME

2008-11-20T15:38:00.002+08:00

Went out with my loved ones today! It was really enjoyable! hahah. I called mummy to tell her that i'll be going to the club &dear boy wanted to talk to her. The both of them can continue forever mann. laughs. I met one of my ballet friend(cant remember her name.. sorry) at my club. My first frame was a strike! LAUGHS. I myself was amazed. applause* My wrist started to swell after awhile &i deproved terribly! 'Makan' at airport POPEYES(yummy..)! Goodnight kisses with love. I was lying comfortably on my bed when dear LOUIS(dong), im ding =), started to irritate me(not really..) with pick-up lines. LAUGHS! A few were hilarious i must say.

Is your name Gillette? Cos you're the best a man can get.

tender loving care

LAID OUT

2008-11-19T13:00:00.003+08:00

dance

dance!

my pretty little angel natalie

Our dance is finally coming along &getting complete! I had truck loads of fun today. Little natalie was so adorable! She got bumped on the head by mummy &later she walked right into the dustbin! laughs. Ooh.. She's so cute! Blisters are not getting any better tho. Blue-blacks on my knees. Going out tomorrow! love.

official girl

STUCK ON YOU

2008-11-18T00:00:00.006+08:00

My dearest girl will be out of town tomorrow! &she'll be missed! Its been awhile since we've gone out huh.. Ooh well. Holidays are not getting better BUT its gona be over soon! =) Christmas list to settle. A whole LOOOOONG list i must say. I munched on pretty white chocolate &blueberry muffins, from dear boy, while writing the list. I diddn know there was such a weighing machine that measures your body fats(BF) &water percentage(WP)! I tried that machine &the outcome made me happy! My BF&WP are normal! "i aint fat leon!" hahah. I went jogging, again, with my dear brother &my face was painted red immediately! Keeping fit isnt that easy.

My lovely frends posing with jabez hand.

(taken on 120908)

Was choreographing duets for dance tomorrow. Thank God maine's exam is finally over! She'll be able to help me 24/7 now! laughs. My sweet cousins came over to play. I had to cancel the movie with my 3bestest non-fat guy friends. "sorry guys.." Am about to lose more weight thanks to leon. &IM NOT ON A DIET!! PERIOD! =D i am happy with myself despite people like *ahem* who keeps physco-ing me. hahah.

anni O hev ot cha

KISS THE GIRL

2008-11-17T23:00:00.010+08:00

The air was filled with love today! I had pretty muffins from my sweetest loveliest boy!

and a sexy necklace.

"My dearest prettiest boy, THANKYOU so much for everything! &EVERYTHING meaning since the day we first met.

Your letter was really really sweet &lovely. Words cannot describe how im feeling now.

It moved me to tears(of joy). So drama.. hahah.

I love you oh so much, baby!"

17nov is loved,by me!

TWIRRRL

2008-11-16T20:23:00.004+08:00

BLISTERS on my feet! I forgot to bring my foot soles &ballet shoes for dance practice! My poor feet was tortured to death by yours BUT at least i had a joyous time in church today! Germaine, abby jie &i stayed in the dance room choreographing &having fun! laughs. We video-ed our dance so we wont forget the steps but jie kept shooting all our "behind-the-scenes&bloopers" moves! Embarrassing but loved. VBC meeting after service &thank goodness that Joel &darius is with me! We ended up having to come up with a "puppet show" instead of a dance or a skit! AvenueQ was first thought! Bestest kenneth was about to fall asleep(i caught you..) halfway through the meeting. Ooo. The kids in my group are mostly guys. Im hoping they wont climb over my head. cross fingers* But theres this poor girl who has fits &another who has G6PD. "Dear God, help me to take really good care of the poor dears!" Am excited for the camp! I went to suntec for dinner &gave dear girl a surprise(kinda)! hahah. She, in return, gave me a really sexy cake!

"Ooh Thankyou loved! You will ALWAYS be treasured oh so much! lovelove."

build to last

INSPIRED

2008-11-15T11:30:00.007+08:00

"It is only with the heart

that one can see rightly;

what is essential

is invisible to the eye."

let me drop dead

A 100 YEARS LATER

2008-11-14T13:00:00.006+08:00

(drawn by my dearest brother)

Ooh. My adorable dog is down with a 'tick fever'. Poor shadow... I, on the other hand, did the laundry for the FIRST TIME! hahah. I diddn noe how to opperate the washing machine. But i managed to succeed with the help of mummy over the phone(well done girl!). laughs. I literally spent the whole day choreographing a lyrical dance for tomorrows dance practice. &im currently out of steps! It isn easy doing it alone. Oh well, thank God PRAYER DOES WONDERS! &the dress that we're gona wear is really pretty. Mmmuacks*

debbie-LOVE LOVE you sweetheart.

maggie-you better be free on the week of your bday.

fatin-you're missed girl! where are you?!

yan-krumpp girl, KRUMPP!

mark-you still owe me a soda..

kelvin-check your mail luhh!!

will you catch me when i fall

MAKE ME FEEL BETTER

2008-11-13T19:00:00.008+08:00

I miss studying &waking up early for school. Look how hardworking we use to be! grin*. &i miss my loveliest of lovelys DEBBIEEE, MAGGIEEE &FATINNN! =( Ooo well, i miss everyone to be exact. They are so "MISS MISSES MISSED" in the name of gigglyfatmadcatdotdotzeezeechang(copyrighted from des who is my co-partner for creating the story 'Oily McFart')! hahah. Its been a long long while since all of us had a meal together huh! We need to make truck loads of plans, loves! Had a haircut that wasnt much of a difference. I'd like to keep it shoulder length short if it wasnt for dance. Highlights are a 'NO NO' for me. The really sweet hair-dresser thought i coloured my hair &wanted to make the colour of my hair more outstanding! =/ I got a shock when she nearly wanted to colour my hair. laughs. I've decided to give up looking for a job. I'm not planning to work anymore! Period. Tho i see 'shopping sprees' taking flight. sigh* &whats more, christmas is coming! Love christmas. Hate christmas shopping. I've got a long list of things to buy for all my love-lings(school&classmates, church cliques, ballerinas+dancers &other darlings). You know how it is when you want to get different things for everyone, trying very hard not to give each friend the same thing. Ooo. HELP!

WISHES;

One: spend more time with LOVE!

Two: free flow of "ka-chings"!

Three: awesome christmas presents!

saw you,
smiled,
made my day!

CROSS MY HEART

2008-11-12T18:22:00.008+08:00

Im sorry. The com was sick. But its much better now! smile* Its working so much faster than usual! JOY. So..

7th nov, friday: Baked cookies with des &my dearest brother. Tho i did most of the work &they were playing half of the time. Cancelled dinner with loved one cos diddn noe where to go. I sprained my left ankle while choreographing for the musical. &i fell in love with the song 'Can i have this dance'. Its so sweet. Dear yong finally heard my mushroom joke! grin*

Q: Why was the mushroom invited to the party?

A: cos he was a fun guy(fungi)

Q: Why did he go to the party?

A: cos there were fun girls(fungus)

Q: Why was he invited &not the cabbage?

A: cos he was more cool(mo gu)

8th nov, saturday: Woke up rather early to choreograph steps for the kids but ended up with 'no more hip hop'. sigh* Had dance rehearsal! Was really tired BUT this made me energetic again. We'll be getting guys from SAJC to dance duets with us! Exciting! I need to start losing all those extra pounds before i embarrass myself when they cant carry me cos im too fat. FAT is the new THIN! hahah. I was thought a new lesson by yong "Never do anything stupid when you're in public. Use a better camera when you want to embarrass people on the net. &make sure you look good on camera!"

9th nov, sunday: Diddn go to church. But popped by to jam with zeke &met louis downstairs. He kept bugging me to go for JYC! (Im sorry, i wont be around). Daddy &'the three of us' fixed the computer on the second floor. I noe.. Im an idiot at fixing computers so i just sat there acting as tho i knew what to do! laughs. Headed to ikea to get some stuff b'cos jiejie will be moving out to the study &the master bedroom will be all MINE! Muahah. Well, not exactly. BUT i will fight for my rights! =)

10th nov, monday: Packed my room. Clearing all the unwanted stuff. Tossing them in the thrash. Gave some away to salvation army. &had yummy prata for supper. Tho the service was rather bad. Sean is oh so loved by me! He made my day/night/morning! hahah. I do not need beauty sleeps already thanks to him. LOVE!

11th nov, tuesday: Celebrated SK's bday in the west. I had a really really sinfully delicious mudpie for supper(?). It was sticky chewy chocolate with cookies&cream ice cream coated with warm chocolate fudge &a cherry on top! Ooo, im still drooling. Thank goodness my loved ones shared it. What more i had AZABU SABO dark chocolate ice cream in the afternoon! Feeling all fat again. But here's my theory.. FAT=CHUBBY=CUTE! laughs. I was officially first(on the dot) to wish SK "happy birthday" at midnight! Wahaha.

Well, i wont be able to post any pictures for now because my phone has got virus.

my heart is wherever you are

HOLD ME CLOSE. REAL CLOSE

2008-11-06T20:07:00.009+08:00

Im not detested by you, i hope.

Make me fat, i dont care.

I'd stay ill all my life,

so you could take care of me.

I wana run away,

with you.

Nothing matters anymore.

But im sorry,

i still love you so..

ohh so much!

i'd like a time machine, please?

HOME SWEET HOME

2008-11-05T10:04:00.006+08:00

I sadly cancelled everthing that was planned for today. Outing with loved ones was cancelled. &i diddn go for lunch with 'botak'. I woke up just in time for lunch &later watched tv till the rain stop. I nearly fainted in the bus. This indian man, sitting SO close to me, literally smelled! I felt so nauseous during that whole 1hr trip back home. Ice cream party soon(i hope..). I wish 'happily ever after' existed. I really do..

my baby..

TOSS & TURNS

2008-11-04T18:00:00.007+08:00

My cousins are CERTAINLY loved. Tho they're still schooling, we had lots of fun! I had fallen for this game called 'beyond balderdash'. It really is entertaining! &phone calls from des doesn seem to stop. laughs. Nonsensed with him till 3am on both nights! gosh.

with love;

miss you so

FREE HUGS FOR ALL

2008-11-03T19:30:00.003+08:00

I caught a tear in your eye today. What happened to sunshine?

Fight those tears with a smile please. Im sure it'll put you at ease.

I'll be here for you my dear, my shoulders &listening ears..

Let 'past' be beautiful memories,

'present' be really happening &'future' be everlasting!

A love so true, i thought they knew.

A love where knots could never go loose.

Smile my dear, smile for me.

For you know your friends will never leave.

before or after the worse?

SEXY CAN I

2008-11-02T12:10:00.003+08:00

It was truly a miracle! Good girl, ME, went to church &sat through service! hahah! Its been awhile FYI.. Service wasn THAT bad, thank God! laughs. &my friends are all missed! I just found out from mummy dear that we're going to malacca in december with my relatives. Renaissance Hotel is where we're gona put up for this vacation. It isn that bad(i think..). My cousin, sister &i are gona share a deluxe room! PARTY!! laughs. Its suppose to be a 5star hotel tho &i think it looks like one. =) I was on a fruit diet today while my lovely family had a big feast! I did steal some food tho. hahah. A fruit diet is suppose to make me healthier, how? Well.. i'd just follow what my cousin does. She's supper slim because she eats fruits &salads ONLY! =/ Scary but healthy! I finally talked to my bestest girlfriend cum les partner. hahah! She showed me a link where this guy was trying to sing Crush by David Archuleta! I feel bad for laughing at him when he was trying so hard to be like him! There was all the effects &background singing etc. It was funny, HILARIOUSLY FUNNY! =x Well, im gona stay over my cousins house, at woodlands, tomorrow! Thats where the fun is suppose to be!

deb-i'm here for you my dear girl! love.

daryl-hellooooo~ C3

yong-misssssssssss =(

susanna-im 60% dumb! hahah.

claire-thankyou so much!

hazzel dazzel*

ONE MORE SHOT

2008-11-01T01:25:00.008+08:00

If a 2.4 NAFA run can kill "long time no run" me, what more can a 4.6km do to me? I ran 4.6km today with my dear brother &lazy sister cycled. It took me about 1/2 an hour while my dear siblings, obviously, made it to the end faster than me! Boi could even jump &laugh &talk to me while i was more than half dead, literally. Its been about 6months since i've ran. I came home breathless, pale &faint-ly. Thank God i diddn 'peng san' at the 2.7km mark. laughs. I did feel good after the run tho. Not THAT "fab"(fat) after all! hahah. Daddy drove us down to aunty serene's place where i was suppose to do the script. It should be completed soon(i hope..). Can anyone tell me where i can find christian hip-hop/rap music?! Oh! The songs are not chosen &steps are not choreographed YET! I desperately need help.. Hurrs. I watched 'Armageddon' after dinner. Its a really REALLY nice show, i must say. I laughed, i cried(seriously..) &i was certainly entertained! &did i mention that Ben Affleck is really cute? Ooo, he is! I couldn stop admiring him on screen. grin* Its been ONLY 2days &im back to looking at pictures of... Ooh so missed!

this silence in this room is so loud

TWIST LICK DUNK

2008-10-31T23:00:00.004+08:00

3 words: "I AM BORED!"

i have nothing if i dont have you

A SMILE IN MY SLEEP

2008-10-30T13:00:00.018+08:00

Its OFFICIALLY over! Ask me "what is study?" &i wouldn know! It should be time for work tho the newspaper doesn seem to be helping. Laziness seems to be taking over me(again..). I feel bad for what i did. Was i too much when i said that? Oops. Feeling insecure is no excuse, i must admit. Should i feel deluded? Maybe i was conceiting(?). Would sorry help or would it jus be another meaningless word to you? Love is all i want now, right now... A last minute dinner appointment with my loved ones. I love crazy-ing with the 2/3 musketeers. We left a little too early before meeting yong &took our time to walk over to markaye's house but our deprive-ness of childhood(not exactly) took over immediately! Hokie Pokie-ed along the way! =D (put your right hand in put your right hand out~) My short legs couldn seem to catch up with those 'long' legs. laughs. Ooh well, I diddn want to walk so fast &perspire like them. We really did take our own sweeeeeeet time, im sure! Hmm. 1hour for a 10-15mins walk! Hahah. Thank God for whoever you are that created handphones. I sweet-talked with my dear girl over the phone &that little talk made her love me more! grin* Those 2 'gay partners' really know how to take their time &make this princess with the 2/3 muskeeters, who have been bully-ing me, wait! Eastpoint desperately needs a make-over mann! It isnt getting anymore interesting than it used to be(?).. Well, it would be a rather good place if you have "privacy please" written all over you. Ate at Kobashoiuwphyfsh(i cant rmb the name..ahaha) then headed home sweet home. Yong was a busy man when we were BEING NICE to wait for him at his bus stop. Well, we cant blame him for being POA genius &getting last minute "help me!" calls on the night before their paper. Des, boi &i went insane while walking to our bus stop. Fleering at random things. SPASMATIC PEOPLE!! We counted the number of ambulance passing by. Yes, we were near the hospital. But hey! Who knows if people are just being 'budget' to call the ambulance just to save money on petrol?! =x Ok, nonsense(&randomness). HAHA. The bus was taking really long while my lovely "beggars" pleaded for money. laughs. Now home is right where we belong. I feel safe, always. Had wonderful donuts from, this time, Donut Factory! mmhm! 12 more days before the party begins! *tick tock*

deb-you could 'High School Musical 3' with me! =D

yong-smelly boy.. (banter*)

boi-when random, _l_ hahah!

des-do the HOKIE POKIEE~!

jiejie-Ibble Dibble no.1 with no Ibble Dibble...

perlyn-babe, i wana dance with you again &again &again!

my prince under disguise..

JE T'AIME

2008-10-29T23:30:00.009+08:00

Ooo well, another insipid day. I was being a nice girlfriend to debbie(my les partner cum bestest girlfriend) &gave up sleep jus to meet her to study! hahah. I met her at her bf's house &poor girl got elbowed on the head by him! I was afraid that she might jus faint while walking to macs. She was walking as tho she was drunk! =/ Blur girl. Bumped into my long lost dear estee halfway. Ooh, she's so missed! Its been awhile since ive talk to her. &she, as usual, had lovely ROMANTIC stories to tell. winks* Met yong, the 'expert' in POA, at macs where he was all alone... laughs. Chef Yong was born when we arrived! LAUGH! Failed to take a picture tho. I had my yummy Mcflurry that he said would make me fat. Apparently, he diddn want to share! Grrh.. That kind soul left to buy dinner for his family while debbie dear &i chit chated. We had fun, TRUCK LOADS of fun.. hahah. As i was heading to the bus stop this girl popped right infront of me &asked if i had a $5 change, which i diddn. I was then being so nice to this stranger &gave her 60cents for her bus ride home! So am i nice or what?! hahaha. Deb tried to insist that that stranger had a nice face thats why i gave her money. (She's a she NOT he, girl) laughs. Im praying real hard that math tomorrow would not be that difficult. Im HOPE-ing not to take it again next year, after yong's "inspirational" talk. =) My sweetest daddy brought J.Co donuts home for supper(?). Anw, they were (slurping-ly) delicious! I want more! hint hint*

yong-1/3some. HAHAHA.

deb-im really faithful girl..! x]

jerome-you so violent..

estee-we've got ALOT to catch up on.

louis-I DIDDN SEE YOU!

its so funny now that i see,

how different life turned out to be

MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY

2008-10-28T21:00:00.009+08:00

Bowling with my friends &family was fun! Was at the club, on sunday, for a wonderful dinner &to bowl! There was an international buffet which i missed cos i had mutabak for lunch &was feeling rather full. Caesar salad-ed for dinner &stole afew of those yummmy desserts tho.. winks* The chocolate cakes were heavenly! Bowling was fun. I didn realise that my bowling "skills" had improved! I was 3rd with a score of 104 for the first round. &1st with a score of 119 for the second round. I won daddy(finally..)! x) even tho i had pulled my muscle. It made me bowl weirdly. hahahs. I disobeyed mummy tho.. whooops. Its been awhile since i've met my long (well.. 1wk4days/1wk) lost dear boy. laughs. Missed him so.. I had dinner with my lovely siblings. Hilarious is the word. We had fun dinner time talking rubbish &doing crazy stuff over dinner. Boi had his sause-y rice thanks to me! muahaha. We were debating who had the best defination of CRAZY. Boi def: Calamity Retarded Afflicted Zany Yew. My def: Caring Rapturous Attractive Zest Youth! We were just acting smart with all the big words. hahah. Jiejie was really blur. Thank God for tonight. Its been a long time since we all had dinner together! Oh they're so loved! Just a few more days &it'll be over! Ooo, I cant wait!

yong-i trust you okay.. <3*
deb-im missing your company already girl! =(
claire-you owe me a song babeh..
jabez-thankyou(:
deedee-good luck with army! learn to shave hair..
amosie babie-i miss you...

with you, its all changing in my destiny

WORK FOUND ME

2008-10-27T06:30:00.006+08:00

HAPPY DEEPAVALI!

&i just found out ive got things to do.. Busy busy beeee..! =)

things i have to do:
1) Choreograph dance

2) dance more..
3) write a script
4) ~~go running with boi~~
5)~~study for maths(?)~~
6) go shopping for my needs

7) ~~bake more cookies~~

with you, i can finally break free

AM I STRONG ENOUGH

2008-10-26T01:30:00.004+08:00

As i rest against this cold hard wall, oh will you pass me by? Will you criticize me as i sit &cry? I had fought so hard &thought that all my battles had been won. Only to find the war had just begun. Is He not strong enough? Is He not pure enough? To break me, pour me out &start again. Is He not brave enough? To take one chance on me. Please, can i have one chance to start again? Will my weakness for an hour make me suffer for a lifetime? Is there any way to be made whole again? If i be renewed &find forgiveness by the strength i've never had. Will my scars forever ruin all God's plans?-He took my life into His hands and turned it all around. In my most desperate circumstance, is there, i've finally found that You are strong enough, that You are pure enough. To break me, pour me out &start again. That You are brave enough, to take one chance on me.

Oh thankyou for my chance to start again.

i never could have done it without you

AMOUR

2008-10-25T09:00:00.003+08:00

I was lying in bed unwilling to get up, trying to avoid the torrid noonday sun. My curtains please, mum. I could even hear those drillings in my head! Waffles with maple syrup for breakfast to brighten up my day a little. &my favourite egg, sunny-side up! My mind is in a mess. Could an assistant help? Maybe. But i'd like to straighten everything up NOW! I am sorry. Its true, im just thinking too much. I know you're here for me, whether physically or not. Love me(?), love you..

yong-ICE CREAM will make us fat! =) LOVE!

jabez-im really sorry..

calida-.kamsahamnida! x]

gracie-i need your help badly.

louis-Thankyou nehneh pok!

deb-my dear girl, thankyou so much! you're love love loved!

ありがとう

NOT A TYPICAL LOVE STORY

2008-10-24T19:52:00.013+08:00

I really meant it when i said enough. Maybe i did not phrase it properly or was it not straight forward enough? I want to be the best not second best. Never will i wana feel this way, ever, again. Said it, but done it? I was desperately looking forward to seeing you but you failed to come my way. Has it ever crossed your mind that i needed you? Someone, anyone(?), please teach me to accept it cos i cant. Whats more, a smile was all i wanted. Maybe even NEEDED! An opportunity we had but we let it slip pass our fingers. The small one was in the spotlight, as usual. What happened to everyone else? Calefares. Feedbacks came with no delay. Even ear plugs are not enough to block out that irritating sound! I'd shout 'help me' if a voice could come out &if i could be heard. I've shedded enough tears. Was i asking for too much when i just needed my comfort? Does my comfort even realise i needed it badly? Even a black sheep would get better care than me. Is everyone against me now? Where did my sunshine go? Is that a rain cloud following me behind? Will it ever stop following me? Walking aimlessly. Left all alone, no where to go. Am i lost? Wheres my map? Directions someone, anyone?

where'd you go?

REMINISCENCES OF PAST GAIETY

2008-10-22T23:59:00.004+08:00

Exciting, it was today. I met dear girl&jerome &dayson on the train heading towards city hall. We were such nice friends to accompany dayson for his interview! Munched on DONUTS on the way. Mmm. Enjoy enjoys!

Donut Empire Cover Girls! laughs.

Here comes the joke of the day. Typical singaporeans who work around central business district area, town, would always be rushing like crazy right? This indian man was rushing for the bus &he 'zao geng'! HAHAHA. Dayson &i had a good laugh! x] His pants dropped right infront of us! sorry, its mean but hilarious! &its kinda hard to actual tell you the joke unless you were there with us! LAUGHS!

sleeping beauty

crazy-ing with mah girl

We bus-ed back to bedok inter to meet seng, xiang, chew &marcus. I was molested on the bus! This guy sitting behind me(i was standing) used his knee & kept nudge-ing my butt! Gosh! 85 was not too crowded when we were there. Had kind of a feast with the guys, including arjun. I was so full i couldn think about eating anymore! We headed to safra wanting to bowl but ended up playing POLAR BEAR &eating our yummmmmy cookies! laughs. Then headed to debs house where all the fun was suppose to happen but i missed it.. damn!

yong-i baked it with LOTS OF LOVE ok! =)

arjun-i could have carried you! imma strong girl! hahah.

chew-now who's the cookie monster?!

dayson-its ah balling NOT ah bowling. LOL

deb-my BERCARDI &ICE CREAM &MOOVIE &SLEEPOVER!! =(

estee&paul-HAPPY 1st YEAR ANNIVERSARY MY LOVELYS!!

why not tears of joy?

COOKIE CRUMBLESSS

2008-10-21T21:21:00.019+08:00

Morining call for leon! i lost my precious 1hour of beauty sleep thanks to him. My "strong&powerful" name seems to actually wake him up! laughs. BUT he was so sweet to buy my honeystars for breakfast! Helpful would be the right word for debbie&jerome, dayson, arjun, aji, marcus, greg, afiq, jianye, nazrin, maggie, fatin, leon, khidhir, & ME! School seems so unschool. It felt as tho i wasted my time getting up so early jus to help those tepid people. I got sunburnt as revenge for thinking that way. Its been a long time since i've played volleyball. I played with the guys &embarrassed myself(again..)! I ran right into the fence, trying to save the ball. &my butt hurts. Joke of the day! hahaha. It was so embarrassing. But if not for the sunburnt, my freinds could see how red my face would be! Well, at least it made them laugh! =D including aji.. Finally! I got my wish to bake cookies without the help of mummy! My dear girl &i baked délicieux gâteau sec(delicious cookies) at my place, with love, FROM SCRATCH! grin* I burnt my middle finger during the process tho. My lovely parents loved it! &daddy ate more than what i expected. It should be a good sign right(?).. Well, we did agree that we could start a bakery! laughs. Cookies for everyone(we know..)!! Im rather tired tho. I realised i've been busy the whole day. A good full body massage is what i need right now!

muahaha

dear girl drooling

*FAMOUS DEBEC ALMOND&CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES*

deb-can't keep my hands off the cookie jar..
yong-imma good girl ok! you're the naughty boy!

naz-its like a mirror image

shawn-MAMA MIA!!

leon-tremble before me.. Muahahah

the day i find my tear in the ocean,
will be the day i'll stop loving you

SMALL GIRL, BIG WORDS

2008-10-20T20:09:00.008+08:00

Another insipid day.

leon-tuition is suppose to make you feel less of an idiot

yong-(f*.*)f : it suppose to look like a crab. LOL

mag-you diddn wake me up!

deb-I LOVE YOU BABE!

arjun-excuses only..

fatin-we so need to catch up girl

one diet coke please..

BUMP-ed

2008-10-19T20:28:00.013+08:00

Little did i expect myself to be in the spotlight, especially when i am rusty! How embarrassing it was. After a long time of not dancing, i screwed up &embarrassed myself infront of the whole congregation! laughs. It should have been up not down &vice versa. I needed to hide my face so badly. Eyes were all staring(distracted..). I just smiled widely, laughing at myself. Hey, people do make mistakes right? hahah. &my night could have been more peaceful. I was not 'snatched away'. Period! I'll never let that happen. grin* I felt as though i was contridicting to myself. I had to digress to stop that thinking(immediately..). If "max payne" will give them a nosebleed, then why not let it happen to me? laughs. I never got a nosebleed before, anyway. Bumped my head real hard on the wall! My 'owl eyes' & my sense of steps doesn seem to be working after 10years(?)! Careless like 'you know who'.. hahah. A big lump i got in remembrance of my muddle-headness. 3am was not very late i guess. At least i managed to get some rest. I felt much love the moment i closed my eyes.

"Is your father a terrorist? cos you're the bomb!"

let there be "I"s now & "We"s later.

"yong lin has no link but he is talking to rebekah lim which made him even more no link but they ended up linking the wrong link which then have to link back to where they lost the link but rebekah lim keep saying yong lin has no link but yong lin think he has linked the things he just said to the previous link"

YONG WAS BEING LAME! laughs.

SIGH

2008-10-18T15:00:00.006+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY ABBY JIE!!

This poem is reallyy sweet! grins*

My thots go out to you, My immortal Beloved

I can live only wholly with you or not at all..

Be calm my life, my all.

Only by calm consideration of our existence

can we achieve our purpose to live together.

Oh continue to love me,

never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

Ever thine

Ever mine

Ever ours.

-Ludwig Van Beethoven

thankyou for ALWAYS making me happy

OH SO LOVED

2008-10-17T14:59:00.004+08:00

Today will be noted down in my calender! It was a really sweeeet &memorable day! grins* Spent the day in town with my loved one(ss). Our first 'destination' was suntec to meet my dearest(bestest) girl. She looked so adorable in her working outfit! Tho we diddn talk so much. Was afraid that her boss might scold her. Later walked down to marina square to catch MAX PAYNE! If you're in for something really thrilling &action-ing, you should catch it! Its really "two thumbs up" &the sound+effects are really awesome. hahah. i'd rate it 4/5. I'd have to admit i didn keep my eyes off the screen. &it was freeezing in the theatre. My comfy mango jacket diddn seem to be keeping me warm. Hurrs. For a moment, i could not feel my fingers! Whats more i kept sneezing(embarrassing..)! 2/3 of the musketeers were freezing too but dear boy wasnt! I guess he was, too, HOT! laughs. A mini pop corn fight we had. &apparently i(who was NOT the target) BECAME the target! but still, it was fun. =) dear debbie, who was being a lazy bum, needed help from us to free the balloons she needed to give out to the little kids. hahah. But we were halfway through the show so we couldn help(sorry girl..). We headed down to vivo to have our dinner &it was really crowded, i must say. Almost everywhere that we wanted to eat had a long queue. So, we dragged our exhausted feet back down to basement1 to hunt for food. Ended up eating Superdog! It made us a little bit more than energized! laughs. &des kept saying how FAB(fat) i was. poke* Back home to have a good night rest tho i'd still be chasing my nose all night. &my feet are killing me! Which means i'd have to buy (more) new shoes! grin* Off to bed with a BIGSMILE on my face! =D (Ooh wasted! we didn take pictures..!)

deb-i'm here 24/7 specially for you! love*

yong-you 'dudong'. ahahah!

arjun-i hope your ankle is better.

shawn-you flubber blubber chubby bubbly..

des-i know im "FAB"! winks*

everyone-Thankyou for praying!

MY sweeet sugar candy man.

DADDY GOD

2008-10-16T10:00:00.004+08:00

Fever confirmed. Im not to blame for not going NSS's class. Skipped his lesson again BUT it was because dear maggie found out that it started really early. &on top of that i couldn get ready in time! Got out of bed at 0910 thanks to maggie. laughs. Oh tell me about "difficulty in waking up". I cant be blamed for being a lazy bum. Its kinda my holiday already &all my timings have adjusted to 'holiday mode'. Rushed out and made maggie wait half-an-hour(im sorry hun..). We had LJS for breakfast! Maggie dear &i had a little "conversation" over breakfast. We did feel better after all the "exchange of words". We're not like those aunties who gossip all day long ok.. hahaha. We went to school and looked for AUNTY ALICE! &made her less of a day-dreamer. grins* We were getting glances like "what are they doing back in school?". It felt so good to be a so-called "ALUMNI". =) Met Mr.S in his BRIGHT ORANGE tee(it was easier to spot him). laughs. We slacked in his office talking nonsense and prank-calling people. "Sergeant Patrick" is his name. HAHAHA. Mag&i then helped to buy stuff for Sec2's up-coming inter-class competition. She made me carry all the food &i looked like Santa-rina! Hurrs. It started raining when we were done with the shopping. Rang-up Mr.S &he had to bring umbrellas instead of a car. my shoe&socks were soaking wet! It made me get a bad chill later on. Practically dranched waist down. A good nights rest doesn really help bcos i'd spend 3/4 of my bed time facing a tissue. Pray for me! Please!

maggie-gona have fun fun fun

arjun-take care(:

shamel-I CANT TEACH!

leon-i'd like to stuff an apple in your mouth

fatin-miss you girl!

deb-take care babe

don worry, my dear..

you'll do fine!

*hugs*

WRONG TURN

2008-10-15T14:25:00.004+08:00

Down with a flu now. I can feel my fever coming back! Hurrs. My nose keeps running away(sniff*) & my laziness made me skip maths with Mr.S today. hahah. But i had lunch with my dearest girl at CS. &i wouldn have woken up if not for her(ahem..). Pepper lunch-ed! Mmm. Im so loving pepper lunch! grins* I like it when you get to cook your own meal WITHOUT being in the kitchen! laughs. I left boring tampinese and headed down to 'LAGI' boring simei, eastpoint, to meet up with my loved ones. Im so free that i actualy miss studying and having ALOT of work to do! I can imagine myself with one whole stack of work to do infront of me.. hahah. My head is spinning that i dont even remember that its a wednesday today! Was late for dance and everything was all messed up! Hurrs.. But at least i managed to catch up with abby jie. Its been so LOOOONG! Shall sleep early tonight as i've gota wake up EARLY tomorrow for NSS's maths lesson(&thinking of it jus makes me lazy again) bye(:

"ALL THE BEST!

to everyone who will be taking

their science practical tomorrow!"

whoooooooopsy